The sky is grey, as grey as i feel I am. I think it´s not easy to reach this conclusion. Too many things have changed our ability to see how we feel. I can't explain, I noticed this yesterday, people can't see inside me - wich is goodsometimes we avoid ... going into too much detail.
I'm numb, sometimes, and feel that this state has been detrimental for me and for those who live with me. However, I have been reading in more detail Psalms 120 and 121.
Psalm 120 is a little dark:

A song of ascents.

 ¹ I call on the LORD in my distress,
       and he answers me.

 ² Save me, O LORD, from lying lips
       and from deceitful tongues.
 ³ What will he do to you,
       and what more besides, O deceitful tongue?
 ⁴ He will punish you with a warrior's sharp arrows,
       with burning coals of the broom tree.
 ⁵ Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech,
       that I live among the tents of Kedar!
 ⁶ Too long have I lived
       among those who hate peace.
 ⁷ I am a man of peace;
       but when I speak, they are for war.

Where´s the hope in this Psalm? At least in the first verse, wich is in itself a huge promise, God hears. The context of the Psalmist is different from mine, but sadness  has been within my heart, as well.
I am reading an author in Psalms that starts his book with an intriguing question. Why Psalm 1 is Psalm 1? Why is it that, for example, Psalm 121 appears after another Psalm (in this case the 120)? When we interpret biblical passages we try to understand the historical context and the context of the passage, what is said or happens before or afterwards. When we read the Psalms that doesn't happen, is my case at least, we don´t, usually, see what the psalm before or after says.
I read Derek Thomas on Psalms, and he writes about Psalm 120 and 121. He doesn´t say it with all the words, but he indicates that Psalm 121 is somehow a sequel, or can be read like that, of Psalm 120.

A song of ascents.

 ¹ I lift up my eyes to the hills—
       where does my help come from?

 ² My help comes from the LORD,
       the Maker of heaven and earth.
 ³ He will not let your foot slip—
       he who watches over you will not slumber;
 ⁴ indeed, he who watches over Israel
       will neither slumber nor sleep.
 ⁵ The LORD watches over you—
       the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
 ⁶ the sun will not harm you by day,
       nor the moon by night.
 ⁷ The LORD will keep you from all harm—
       he will watch over your life;
 ⁸ the LORD will watch over your coming and going
       both now and forevermore

Psalm 121 seems to be a conversation (verse 2 seems to be the answer to the question of verse 1). Will it be the continuation of the previous Psalm? I don't know, but I have approached it as an answer to the pain present in the previous Psalm. God hears my prayer, but He responds to it, as well.
The Creator God (v. 2) Knows and helps me, help me, he is attentive and does not cease to guide me on the narrow way (v.3), He watches over me daily (v. 5), day and night (v. 6) when I'm more tired or even when I'm sleeping.
We can find consolation in God´s relief and care, but the last two verses show that more than our body, our soul is secure, our salvation is a certainty, not for what we do, but by God´s work and protection. We are secure in God, now and forever.
My soul gets satisfied, my pain decreases and my praise is a certainty. Good Sunday.